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Saturday, April 30, 2011


Do you ever feel like there's a heaviness around you? I sure have been feeling that way lately. It comes around a certain word, a certain disease. The word is cancer! I hate it!

Many of you know that my mother-in-law is fighting breast cancer right now. It's been a long journey for her. The good news is that she caught it early. But she still has to go through treatments. First surgery, now chemo, and then radiation. The other day I went with her to the hospital for her 5th chemo treatment. I was actually looking forward to spending the whole day with her. When we got to the hospital, she first had to get a blood draw to check her platelets and white blood cell count. We then waited to see the nurse and then her oncologist. After that, we waited to be called back for her to get the chemo. Once they called us back we walked into this big room. The room was divided into 3 pods. Each pod has 8 or 10 chairs in it. This room was packed. There were many people sitting there...having chemo put into their veins.

As I sat there with my MIL, listening to the nurse, listening to her, I felt so sad. My heart was breaking for her and all the others in this room. I hate cancer. I hate that it takes lives. I hate how it makes my MIL feel after. I hate everything about it! I sat in that room, praying for all the people in there, praying for their families.

Back up a few days with me. One of my good friends just lost her sister a week ago. She died from a very aggressive stomach cancer. She fought hard for 5 months but did not get her healing here on earth, instead she got it in heaven. I just attended her funeral today. She was only 43 years old.

Tomorrow I will attend the funeral of a co-worker. She died this week from lung cancer. Her teenage daughter is now without her mother. A teenage daughter is also without her father because he died of cancer when she was one. My heart breaks for this young girl who will graduate from high school in about a month. My heart breaks for those left to grieve.

Just a few days ago, I received an email from one of our minstry leaders. She was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. Thankfully, it's very treatable.

Many of you will remember previous posts I've written about my friend, Kristi Foreman. She is fighting a very aggressive brain cancer. She has four children about the same ages as my four children. We are praying for a healing for her.

Another friend of mine also has breast cancer. She just finished her treatments. She has a beautiful little girl.

So, you see my friends...I have this heaviness in my heart. I don't understand why there is so much cancer. At times like these, trivial things seem so unimportant. Nothing else seems to matter except for loving others. No matter what our circumstances, we are not guaranteed another day on this earth. When my time here is up, I want to make sure that I've loved to the fullest.

When Jesus was at his last supper with his disciples he said, when I am gone, remember this...love one another as I have loved you. I ask you...are you loving others as much as you possibly can? Have you showed your spouse how much you love them? Have you hugged and kissed your children so much that they are iritated with you? Have you put down that book or shut down the computer when your child asks you to play a game with them? Have you called your mother or father and told them you love them? What about your friends? And what about that person you're really mad at...what could you do to forgive them and show them love? What about a stranger...what could you do to show love to a perfect stranger? Love is a beautiful thing. You never know someone's pain or what they're going through.

Yes, these past few weeks have been heavy. But yet it has caused to me think and act. What can I do to lift the heaviness? I can pray and I can love. I can share my thoughts and my heart. I write for me but share for you. I write this because I need to hear this. I need to do this.

Psalm 5:11-12 But let all who take refuge in you rejoice;let them sing joyful praises forever.Spread your protection over them,that all who love your name may be filled with joy. For you bless the godly, O Lord;you surround them with your shield of love.

Psalm 26:8 I love your sanctuary, Lord,the place where your glorious presence dwells.

Mark 12:30-31 And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength. The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ No other commandment is greater than these.”

Luke 6:27 “But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you.

John 3:16 “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.

May you find comfort in our Heavenly Father.

Bless you,

1 comment:

  1. Cancer is such a horrible disease, my thoughts and prayers are with your family. Just remember when times are hard we can always turn to our Lord, He will give us the strength to get through anything. God bless.

    Isaiah 40:29
    He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength.


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